Every single time I told my dad, why do they expect me to be acting a certain way or act or dress their way, he would say just act, be happy inside in every situation just play the role and get out, no gain no loss. You make people happy by not losing yourself over the concept of your self created identity that is resisting change. Best part you weren't even trying to do it for them. You come out of it untouched and happier.
I didn't like going or meeting people, then we started meditation, of course you love accept people, initially honestly I could go days loving but moment they triggered my emotions, I was out of control. Its like someone had the leash on me, they could just press switch and make me woof emotionally, physically. That struggle to be on path and yet not so sane enough to have the faith, followed by guilt of failing myself. Its a solid kick to heart, shakes you up.
I heard so many enlightened beings, the underline of most of the conversations would be just act, this is a theater we call life, you are an actor, in every scene you change your script, emotions, body language according to people around. We all do it unconsciously, why not observe and consciously be happy and more giving. When you can't cope with a situation, you kind of freak out which is also an acting, now you are touched by fake drama, its like a tv serial actor complains how much she has to work for her mother-in-law when in fact she's not even married for real. Now I could avoid all people places situations but there's still going to be at least 1 person who I will communicate with. My husband, my mom, my dog anyone can be the trigger. Can I stop being triggered?
Just be an actor like a day's job, go perform, come back untouched. I tried, I would go and meet people, play a role happily all the while observing different personalities. When you are out of yourself, you see so much more in people. Their insecurities, their fears, their strengths, their traits that they think define them. Everything is out there. Then you understand a lot.You stop judging, its a zoo out there with so many species of humans. And best of all, those inner voices that tell your current status like a popping icon vanish. You are there just experiencing silence inside life outside. Its like I walk in somewhere, instantly the observer is out, I notice when I lose my calm, around who and why. Best part, we are not pretending, we are genuinely happy. No more ego boosting.
Does observing become straining? Any new practice will be. Its new, we don't know how much effort to put in. In a month, you become really calm, you can see yourself as a third person observing the same scene you are yourself in, it is like you are flowing with nature blessing everyone around and now you can act even better because there is no vested interest or desire. This all happens effortlessly in 2 months. Even at times you are suffering, you know learn and improvise.
Does radar go off? Yes a lot of times, in the starting it would really bug me but then that is also a part of process. It will go off on off on off on. Sometimes its off for days, I walk around empty thinking nothing just looking observing but no matter how much I try, I can't act. Its like white silence that you actually listen to. When it goes off, just observe, this shall pass too. You are the sky, thoughts are clouds that come and go.
Last time when I went to wedding, I wasn't ready. Even though I was meditating, I wasn't powerful enough to not let things touch me. This time it worked like a charm. Wherever god put me, I did what was needed. Now worries, sadness are clearly indicators and you can be prepared before you fall in their pit. Another pit is when I get over excited, happy I lose the control and flow with my thoughts. There is nothing wrong in being joyful or sad. Just the moment its over, it should be done with. No more reliving the old times rush or avoiding the difficult thing.
All is same for an actor, drama romance tragedy all is same. Maintain the state of samta or parity, keep love peace purity as basis. You don't have to do anything, just observe meditate and don't fall into the traps of self analysis, guilt.
I love you all,
Life is what it is, accept or not.
When you are shooting a family movie, why is it you are all smiles making it as perfect as possible because its on record well news is everything is on record so smile love accept all time and life will be like a breeze.
You are doing it for you. Nobody gets more benefits than you.
Be equanimous. Happiness, sadness are all same for you, the actor in drama who's very silent and still inside.
Thanks,
NAMASTE
I didn't like going or meeting people, then we started meditation, of course you love accept people, initially honestly I could go days loving but moment they triggered my emotions, I was out of control. Its like someone had the leash on me, they could just press switch and make me woof emotionally, physically. That struggle to be on path and yet not so sane enough to have the faith, followed by guilt of failing myself. Its a solid kick to heart, shakes you up.
I heard so many enlightened beings, the underline of most of the conversations would be just act, this is a theater we call life, you are an actor, in every scene you change your script, emotions, body language according to people around. We all do it unconsciously, why not observe and consciously be happy and more giving. When you can't cope with a situation, you kind of freak out which is also an acting, now you are touched by fake drama, its like a tv serial actor complains how much she has to work for her mother-in-law when in fact she's not even married for real. Now I could avoid all people places situations but there's still going to be at least 1 person who I will communicate with. My husband, my mom, my dog anyone can be the trigger. Can I stop being triggered?
Just be an actor like a day's job, go perform, come back untouched. I tried, I would go and meet people, play a role happily all the while observing different personalities. When you are out of yourself, you see so much more in people. Their insecurities, their fears, their strengths, their traits that they think define them. Everything is out there. Then you understand a lot.You stop judging, its a zoo out there with so many species of humans. And best of all, those inner voices that tell your current status like a popping icon vanish. You are there just experiencing silence inside life outside. Its like I walk in somewhere, instantly the observer is out, I notice when I lose my calm, around who and why. Best part, we are not pretending, we are genuinely happy. No more ego boosting.
Does observing become straining? Any new practice will be. Its new, we don't know how much effort to put in. In a month, you become really calm, you can see yourself as a third person observing the same scene you are yourself in, it is like you are flowing with nature blessing everyone around and now you can act even better because there is no vested interest or desire. This all happens effortlessly in 2 months. Even at times you are suffering, you know learn and improvise.
Does radar go off? Yes a lot of times, in the starting it would really bug me but then that is also a part of process. It will go off on off on off on. Sometimes its off for days, I walk around empty thinking nothing just looking observing but no matter how much I try, I can't act. Its like white silence that you actually listen to. When it goes off, just observe, this shall pass too. You are the sky, thoughts are clouds that come and go.
Last time when I went to wedding, I wasn't ready. Even though I was meditating, I wasn't powerful enough to not let things touch me. This time it worked like a charm. Wherever god put me, I did what was needed. Now worries, sadness are clearly indicators and you can be prepared before you fall in their pit. Another pit is when I get over excited, happy I lose the control and flow with my thoughts. There is nothing wrong in being joyful or sad. Just the moment its over, it should be done with. No more reliving the old times rush or avoiding the difficult thing.
All is same for an actor, drama romance tragedy all is same. Maintain the state of samta or parity, keep love peace purity as basis. You don't have to do anything, just observe meditate and don't fall into the traps of self analysis, guilt.
I love you all,
Life is what it is, accept or not.
When you are shooting a family movie, why is it you are all smiles making it as perfect as possible because its on record well news is everything is on record so smile love accept all time and life will be like a breeze.
You are doing it for you. Nobody gets more benefits than you.
Be equanimous. Happiness, sadness are all same for you, the actor in drama who's very silent and still inside.
Thanks,
NAMASTE
