Yoga practice update : My progress in last few months

Aaah my yoga practice, although all my teachers keep saying my practice has improved, its strong but in my heart I know its not even satisfactory. With yoga, whats most annoying (sorry for a negative adjective in yoga article) is it takes too much time to blend into it. The leg that should be straight in bird pose is still not there. The forehead to knee just happened. I mean its like a snail crossing through challenges that look so much easier in person. My instructors are from thailand which is like the sanctuary of yoga practitioners so when someone points out something I have been doing all the time wrong, it makes me even madder again not the perfect way to describe emotions.

In true sense, changes are visible to people around you. My husband says this is the first time in life he's seen me working for something I actually really love and enjoy. Also, my tires are gone, when I tried a dress last week and expressed how fat I looked, he pointed out it was my ribs hehe silly me. So yeah yoga will change you in ways you will never imagine. Fitness or good looking part will not even matter to you.

My water intake has increased along with more healthier food options so now I don't need emergen c or a sports towel. The heat doesn't really bother me as it used to. As of now, my corner cooling spot stays too. Instructors have been asking me to come to front row but nada my mind starts comparing killing my spirit. Also instructors are business owners so you don't have to listen to everything they say. If your body says its right, do it otherwise wait till you are ready.

I feel more confident, calmer. Previous me would have fumbled talking to people sometimes. I had anxiety issues. Yoga got rid of them. I compliment people's practices, their beauty, open doors , talk about my insecurities and our relationship has improved too. Not that it wasn't great, it was based more on my cuteness and love grabbing ability, now its more like we can discuss for hours, breakfast takes like an hour to finish. Ohh those delightful conversations on life, people, yoga, meditation. I would say there is so much on table we want to discuss. Our relationship matured, we are more understanding and thoughtful about each others' needs.

In yoga practice, its the small improvements that matter. When you get that bind or when you achieve balance in tree pose. Those small accomplishments pave the way for a more strength based practice. I tried yang and turns out it was more on your guts than strength. When everyone was kicking their legs up, my faint heart gave me several reasons not to. The conclusion that I came up with was whatever wherever you put your heart body to , you will achieve it . That simple.


As you advance through classes, practice will get slower rewards because it also gets tougher. Don't give up, keep fighting and profits to body soul are countless.

NAMASTE


Me 2 months ago, its getting colder so I barely step out for pics.

Don't mention the garment maker

Netflix is full of documentaries that matter in the true sense. There is an elite section that focuses on nature, human quality of life, consumerism, vegan culture and what not. I saw them all filling up my mind with crude facts. One of them was "True Cost".

What did you get for black friday? That dress in sale, those leggings you didn't really need, the shirt you might never wear and all of them just because it was cheap. Are you a forever21 fan? Most of the girls are, its is one of the shops where you can buy stuff that you can freely throw away after that party. When black friday sales come, my friends go crazy, they buy wallets for 10$, watches for 25$ giving reasons like it was michael korrs or coach or nike. The need is never really included. Half of my wardrobe just hangs and gets moved from house to house.

Lets see it from my eyes. We lived in india all our lives so when we moved I wanted to buy victoria's secret, get macy's and frankly with all the clearance it looked so achievable. Then you begin to notice  those made in india, made in bangladesh, made in china labels all over your clothes. This is where you go and watch the documentary "TRUE COST". To be honest, indian products like kurta saree have way better quality than this junk being sold in all the malls in US.

So why should you even care? Its not like the cloth looks degraded. Well, do you know that if your clothes are not made with right cotton, you can absorb all sorts of chemicals and get skin diseases. Or  to make that shirt you just bought some 200 people died in hazardous factory conditions in bangladesh. For your leather boots, every other kid in kanpur has hereditary disorder. For that cotton, farmers use loads of pesticides so in a village in india, whole village has retarded kids dying early because their parents can't afford treatment. They work for less wages in bad conditions so americans can buy cheaper products.

Why do they do it? Its not like you forced right? Well, american companies don't pay attention to third world factory regulations. Everytime they have an order, company offering the lowest price of manufacturing wins. To lower prices, some woman in bangladesh has to cut her girl's education in middle. All your nike pepe h&m are on someone's miserable situation to accept and live.

Ohh you are going to say  I do charity, I give away clothes to poorer countries. When I got married, my mother in law took me to this market in gwalior which is like a small town where t shirts were as cheap as 1$, people were buying those not even knowing they are all second hand charity products sold off. That is where your charity lands.

Now you don't want to care for economy people blah blah bullshit. All you care about is looking savvy and smart. I get it totally do. Lets see what might matter to you. You think you are buying cheaper but you are also buying more and its fast fashion. So technically you are spending way more than before for 75% of clothes that will not last.

Hmmm I know I know you can't avoid buying from all the shops. So in that case go to this site, learn more where you can buy freely with no blood on your hands. Like literally. Buy high quality products, don't compromise.


http://truecostmovie.com/

Indians are not cultural fools, their kids are :P

Have you ever realized you do criticize your indian parents a bit too much? I mean seriously we all do and we are not completely wrong. They were not the most sensitive generation with kids. With a lot of struggle and running around, they did get lost losing the concept of paying attention where it was needed.

If you look at it now, every other working couple is doing the same. Time is not enough so we are all on our cellphones all the freaking time. To be fair, we gave kids mobiles too. Everyone if awfully tired at the end of the day and we barely make it.

The point is that is what indian parents did, they made money. In this ridiculous documentary on problems faced by first generation indians, they complained how they couldn't date, the association with any culture was difficult because of parents and indian people are so pushy. I am pretty sure there are awesome first generation indians who never had to use these terms and lived loved like all the other people around. Stop making excuses for your lame inclinations, less self esteem. Yes, your parents can damage you but not after you move out.

You don't know what culture to follow. Hmm are any of us traditional in the truest sense. Only those who actually want to do a full ritual diwali pooja do it. Rest of us even though raised in smallest of towns don't bother. Besides there were a lot of reasons a lot of things were said and done in india, the flaw is our parents didn't explain enough. When you tell someone why you should not eat pickle or be secluded when you are down or not go to temple, the reason shouldn't be because you are down. There is a whole mythrispeaks blog dedicated to this. Its all about energy flow and pickles not good for your body at that time. What we are trying to forget is what others are researching and retaining.

Indians are not cultural fools, when your grandparents fuss about eating at same time everyday, that again is good for health advised by all the nutritionist documentaries on netflix.  Do you have a relative that eats pastry without eggs and doesn't allow you to enter home with meat? Everyone has, now why or whats are never discussed. Now we are all aspiring to be vegans learning how beef pork milk egg has something our bodies can't even digest. The plant food is all we need. Were they wrong? No its just that the reasoning logics are never there. So we tell them you are old you don't know I have to eat eggs to get protein to bulk up.

So kids land in a circle where there are lot of teachings but nothing to back it up. Then there is this different lifestyle that looks amazing and full of research so why not just go for it. Indian kids end up being the most confused grown ups. Parents lack communication skills, they are more scared at the thought of their daughter having sex being drunk so instead of asking they try to command which by the way doesn't even work on newborns.

Did you know kamasutra was not written as pornography? It was actually studied and researched like you study yoga. Sex was never a taboo. When we were attacked by outsiders, in an attempt to guard women's honor, all the parda kind of traditions came. We should have ended when the time was right.
Even early marriage had reasons as it gave enough time for husband wife to have fun before kids. Yeah so indians knew what they were doing. We are old eggs, we have nailed billions of vegetarian recipes not just tofu or salad with dressings.

What can help us right now is to not abolish every tradition because its old. Understand the significance, find the roots of it then if it is not for you, you are free to move on. Don't be a cultural fool. Also, parents out there you did a bad job bringing up kids who feel so out of place. You did nothing for their self esteem. You failed in passing a beautiful sexy culture.